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An Unseasonal Flood

And the tears came. They ebbed and flowed like a seasonal flood. But this wasn't a seasonal occurrence. He hadn't cried in ages. It seemed as if he was crying from memory. Memories of a past he didn't want. Memories from a past that had broken him. But he wept all the same, shedding all shame and fear. He wept like never before. And those painful, watery utterances kept flowing. Almost like a deep wound. Perhaps it was a wound. But he didn't know. He couldn't think. He couldn't stop. He cried silently in the deep night. He let the tears stain his face. He wanted them to stain his face. He wanted the tears to purge his unholiness. And as suddenly as they had started, the tears stopped. They stopped with the speed of thought. But he wasn't thinking anymore. And finally he came to his senses. The paper he had been writing on was soaked. The ink had spread and smudged. Instead of coherent words, flimsy remnants of his thoughts remained. It's true, he thought...

Going Away

There were tears in her eyes. She held him tightly for the last time. Pain closed in on them. In the background someone was playing on a guitar with painful languor. For once she brushed her tears back with the back of her hand. He let his tears trickle to the floor for the first time in ages... Finally, as it always does, reality came thudding through their stairs of thought. And they laughed. They laughed with a carefully cultivated falseness. And the tears were gone. And they were sane again. Because sanity and insanity are measured by laughter: tears just don't count. They parted with smiles they had constructed years ago. Follow @diaporesis

Crying in the dark

Black tears trickle into nothingness. I've nothing to say. Let me be me.

Footnote #4

People change in a flash.  People change, painfully. I knew someone yesterday. Today I don't. The emptiness scalds me. The blanks in my life haunt me. Someone was mine yesterday. Today no more. Today she has the world, I have just myself and my misery. But it's love, they say. And I, (no, not we) shall overcome.